Monday, October 31, 2005

Giving up is so very hard to do

I've seen a couple really bad movies in the last week. One was an advance screening of In the Mix, the new movie starring Usher, the other was G, some movie starring dude from Judging Amy and Blair Underwood. Honestly in my bad movie meter, these two films were probably two of the worst movies I've ever seen, but still I sat through them both. Yes, I did think about leaving, just getting up and walking out, I knew the movies weren't going to get any better. But I couldn't. For some reason I had to sit there and ride it out. I knew the endings would be deeply disappointing but still, I sat there waiting until the very end. I was horrified by both endings, Usher got married to the Italian chick and started doing the re-run at his wedding, in G, the stupid main character woman got shot, and actually that was oddly fufilling. Regardless, I got up left the theater disappointed, (more so about G since I paid to see it) and both times a bit emotionally upset. And though I am thoroughly disturbed that people waste millions of dollars on movies that should never make past the paper shredder, I think I was more disappointed in myself for staying through the whole thing. So my question is, why is it so hard to give up?

Good one. Why, when you know something is bad, has been bad, is going to continue to be bad, is it still so hard to just finally suck it up and quit it. Walk out, ask for your money, heart, or self-respect back from whoever stole it, and just leave. Close the door, end the chapter, let it ride.

With the movie, it's because I really want to give it, it's full opportunity to at least make 25 cents of my 10 dollars worth it. With, work, relationships, love, etc, I think it's because giving up people, situations, things is almost like personal failure. It hurts as much to truly give up on people, as it does to not give up on them and allow them to damage your life. It's sad, I think, when you realize you can't save someone, you can't save your job, you can't save your friendship, you can't save the movie. You just have to acknowledge it directly and give up on it. It's not going to get better, no matter how long you stay there watching it. Why is it so hard to realize that the ending is going to suck, whether you see it or not.

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enigma said...

amen, amen, amen....